Love or Friendship?

You are always in this buoyant mood when you visit me. You knock on the door but when I look into the peephole you place your finger to block the view and well I know for sure it is you. And there you are with your boyish charm.

I welcome you in and you have lots to say about your day. I tell you to settle down and ask if you need coffee. You tell you dont like too much of it and so I make half a cup for you and a full one for myself.

We settle down and chat....I think we could chat for ages. I feel so comfortable with you, like a childhood friend.

I get a call from my Mom on my mobile. You start your pranks again...tickling me in my ribs...my Mom asks why I am breaking into laughter and I tell her it’s nothing I am just happy.

We decide to go out for dinner and as I go out to lock the door, you walk stealthily behind me and when I turn around, you make funny faces in the dark room. I wait for you to come out threatening you that I will lock you in and you are out with a wide smile on your face. Remembering it today still makes me laugh so much...

We head for dinner, searching for eating places around, you keep cursing me about not eating non-vegetarian food, as that makes the options lesser around being a foreign land.

Back from dinner and it is time for you to go home. I walk with you to the station. It looks like another day ended, feels so normal but when I look back today I miss the friend, the boy and the fun that was stuck in fleeting moments. The love, which hit upon me when it was time for us to go our ways.

सामुदायिक प्रार्थना

I love this prayer, enjoy listening it on the Sanskar Channel. If you are keen switch on your TV at 6am :), here you go:



है प्रार्थना गुरुदेव से यह स्वर्ग्सम संसार हो
अति उच्चतम जीवन बने पर्मातमय व्यवहार हो
ना हम रहे अपने लिए हमको सभी से गरज़ है
गुरुदेव यह आशीश दे जो सोचने का फ़र्ज़ है

हम हो पुजारी तत्व के, गुरुदेव के आदेश के
सच प्रेम के नित नेम के, सत्धर्म के सत्कर्म के
हो चिढ झूठी राह की, अन्याय की अभिमान की
सेवा कारन को दास की, परवाह नहीं हो जान की

छोटे ना हो हम बुद्धी से, हो विश्व्मय से ईश्मय
हो राममय और कृष्न्मय, जगदेव में जगदीश्मय
हर ईन्द्रीयों पर ताव कर, हम वीर हो अति धीर हो
उज्जवल रहे सरस सदा, निज धरमरथ समबीर हो

अत्तिशुध हो आचार से, तन मन हमारा सर्वदा
आध्यात्मा कि शक्ति हमें, पल भी नहीं कर दे जुदा
इस अमर आत्मा का हमें, हर श्वास भर में गम रहें
गर मौत भी आ गयी, सुख दुःख में हम सम रहें

हे गुरुदेव हम सबको सद्बुद्धि दे
सतकर्त्व्य करने की परवर्ती दे
सच बोलने का अभ्यास दे
सतस्वरूप का ज्ञान दे

ॐ नमः शिवायः ! ॐ नमः शिवायः ! ॐ नमः शिवायः !

About Death from the book "The Pilgrimage" - Paulo Coelho

Sharing some passages from Paulo Coelho’s book “The Pilgrimage” from the chapter “Death” which I am reading now:

"Human beings are the only ones in nature who are aware that they will die. For that reason and only that reason, I have a profound respect for the human race, and I believe that its future is going to be much better that it’s present. Even knowing that their days are numbered and that everything will end when they least expect it, people make of their lives a battle that is worthy of a being with eternal life. What people regard as vanity - leaving great works, having children, acting in such a way as to one's name from being forgotten - I regard as the highest expression of human dignity.

"Still, being fragile creatures, humans always try to hide from themselves the certainty that they will die. They do not see that it is death itself that motivates them to do the best things in their lives. They are afraid to step into the dark, afraid of the unknown, and their only way of conquering that fear it to ignore the fact that their days are numbered. They do not see that with an awareness of death, they would be able to be even more daring, to go much further in their daily conquests, because they would have nothing to lose - for death is inevitable"

The second paragraph reminds me of the book “The Tibetan book of living and dying” written by Sogyal Rinpoche. We live our life without realizing the importance of Death, avoiding its talk & ignoring its reality. Allowing it to be part of our thought process helps us live fulfilling lives.

Alvida

Song of Life In a Metro
Song : Alvida.... Kaise Keh Diya Alvida
Play song:

Alvida - K K.mp3

Lyrics
chupake se kahin, dheeme paanv se
jaane kis taraf, kis ghadi
aage badh gaye hamse raahon mein
par tum toh abhi the yahin
kuchh bhi na suna, kab ka tha gila
kaise keh diya alvida

jinake darmiya gujri thi abhi
kal tak yeh meri zindagi
dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko
hum bhi kar chale alvida
alvida, alvida, meri raahein alvida
meri saansein kehati hai, alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida

sunle bekhabar, yuun aankhein pher kar aaj tu chali ja
dhundegi nazar humko hi magar har jagah
aisi raaton mein leke karvate, yaad hamein karna
aur phir haar kar kehna kyun magar, keh diya alvida alvida
koi puchhe toh zara, kya socha aur kaha alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida

Hum the dil jale, phir bhi dil kahe
kaash mere sang aaj hote tum agar, hoti har dagar gulsita
tumse hai khafa, hum naaraaz hai, dil hai pareshaan
socha na suna tune kyun bhala keh diya alvida alvida
koi puchhe toh zara, kya socha aur kaha alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida

kyun socha aur kahan alvida
dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko
hum bhi kar chale alvida

Losing and Love!

I am sobbing in agony as we part, my vision is blurred yet the picture is as bright and clarion as daylight. "I got to go" I say. You would kill me for it but I say what I have to say.

Losing each other is equitable, condignly punished by pain, love to be smothered, we need to go ahead. Like a cruel parent to a kid, we ought to make those harsh decisions.

"Can we be friends?" I ask..."Friends?" You look at me, a newfound enemy making an outrageous statement...I imagine you reaching for your sword again :)

As I look back today reminiscing over the romantic and passionate days, I can see the softness in our eyes, the warmth, the promised kisses...the hugs from the distance. There is a feeling of loss but also a feeling of victory. Mastery of the senses, an escape from perdition to a life beyond one's desires.

Monday Blues!!

On a monday morning when the maid hasnt turned up, got loads of office work to finish and friends say "you dont care" :). What I like about all this is that all of its true ;-), what I am unhappy about is that there are some friends who care and some who care more than needed...Leave me alone with my worries please..........!! I dont need any help...I love being sad and alone.........!!! :)

Sridhar just requested me in the morning "Since the maid hasnt come dont put her anger on me". This is the time I need my husband :) I tell him "nowadays you arent a good punching bag too..forget it...";-)

My friend tries to help me, she says "things will be fine for u", that actually puts a cheer on me...I like friends who are like butterflies who give u the cheer and move on...dont weigh u down with their presence...especially when one is facing such crisis situations...:)

Suraj sa chamkein hum!!

Every morning when I get Nidhi ready for school I sing this song "Suraj sa chamkein hum" and she loves it. I love it too...and listening to it now when I am away from Nidhi, home, my country I love so much...:)..brings tears to my eyes...!!!
(Well I am back soon to India soon, another 2 days :) )

If you share the same passion, you will enjoy this song: