Pyar ka side effects.....

My conversation on chat with a friend on "love" :)
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ME: love catches one unawares

Friend: i guess

ME: sometimes we think we know it all
and we are in this good intellectual state
and love comes by
crashing our identity
intellect
fundas
and what not

Friend: so basiclly loves just screws us..one way or the other
ha ha ..

ME: well said
;-)
but if u want to see it as a true optimist
like me
I see it as a way to introspection
learning
knowing oneself
and changing course
lot of newness comes in us
and there is a fresh way we see ourselves
also one needs to realise the object we love
aint so lovely as much we make it
there is lot of our creation
and we lose touch with reality
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"Friend" didnt respond after this...must be thinking "YE KITNI PAKAATI HAI" ;-)

Helping Hand!

Mom always lectures ;-) "Support people when they need you" "Dont miss opportunities to help people"

For years I didnt have the discernment to comprehend this and was ignorant of the growth I was missing.

From past 4-5 years though, I am cognizant to this aspect of life. One of the discoveries is that when I give more importance to the community around me, my self worth has actually risen.

Spirits are lively and blithe. Everyday is satisfying because life always has a cause when I am thinking outwards and rather indulging in the self.

I have even gone to the extent of being kind to many who have been unkind to me. I empathize with the individuals I have hurt and give them a true and sincere apology. To respect them, whom I thought I didnt require as they didnt seem to fit in my scheme of things.

Before now, I would have been very hesitant to do such acts, but now I apprehend it all. There are no loose ends, no hangups and my heart is expanding.

I am "no different" from the other human, I am the world. I am ONE with all!

I am devoid of hatred, revenge, hurtful feelings....too good to be true??...huh!! ;-)

...And you can be too, just a shift in thinking :)

Job and Hikes!

Its hard to accept, the words are stuck in his throat. Life couldnt be this!! He resigns himself to his fate. Its always the smarter ones who succeed in the career path. Whoever cared about hard work. Yeah yeah, everyone wants a smooth guy. With all these thoughts in his mind he heads out of the manager's cabin. He has got a 3% hike and he is shocked...

Its been 3 years at the job and Mr Mehenti was the person at all times. Normal work and he was there, crisis time and he was slogging out the hours at work. He just kept doing the work with all focus and concentration. He didnt expect anything from the job but just to do it best and to do it right.

"Now what should I do? Should I look for another job or do I continue the way I was..? What do I do? Help me!!! "

Please help Mr Mehenti!

Fantasies, Dreams and Life!!!

Right now I can see life like carrying a remote with 3 buttons: Fantasy, Dreams and Life
What a luxury!!! All of these states are great...for some I may sound crazy ;-)

Just imagine, I press this button and there I go fantasizing. I am on this beautiful, exotic place...gardens, flowers, the sky and there I am sitting and writing poetry...wow!! :)

The next button, and I am dreaming in the night. It is involuntary but to some extent my state of mind does influence it. I am dreaming of an era gone by, so many 1000 years ago. Struggling as a woman, living my life in those restrains. It feels so true...it is about helplessness and when I grow out of it, it is about maturity. Not making sense to you? Just get it that I am living in a different time altogether!

And then I wake up and press the button "Life". Woaaah...what a wonderful morning! Let me start my day listening to Suprabhatam. Yoga and meditation makes me feel so much in place...and I am off to work!!

Then I press the next button and the next and I must say I am freaking out friends...;-)

Love is not lost

He told me "Remember that gal I told you about, it’s all over!" "I cannot believe its true, did it really happen?” "I wish she would come back to me"

How we all wish our loved ones living or dead came back to us? Those unfulfilled desires, love that was lost.

I tell my friend "Love isn’t lost" and maybe this was destined to happen for there is a better life waiting.

He is tired and sleepy, had been lamenting over it the whole day. "Thanks for your kindness!! Will surely take your advice on this tomorrow, now I got to sleep" :) :)

Surely my “gyaan” won’t spare you friend for I learnt that love is not lost, its always there within us and if you care you will discover it!! :)

“I hold it true, whatever befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”
Alfred, Lord Tennyson quotes (English poet often regarded as the chief representative of the Victorian age in poetry, 1809-1892)

I guess this would make more sense:

“'Tis better to have loved and lost than to do homework with three children”
(Quote picked up from the internet)

The Seeker

And we dream when young... The world is ours and there are no worries. As age passes by dreams have lesser or no meaning. Life loses its thrills and excitement. There is little left to aspire for. Its getting so tough, need to keep the mind sane and the body in shape. The seasons dont matter at all, as everything is a struggle.

Is this why we are here..? To realise at the end that it was just to die...to leave everything and go whatever we had desired most.

And we die with the mysteries unsolved...what is life and what is death?

Some say we care less to know, why waste time on this...just live :)

I am a seeker, I search for the knowledge...find lots around, makes sense for a while but I dont get the Truth.

For certain is death for the born
And certain is birth for the dead;
Therefore over the inevitable
Thou shouldst not grieve.
Bhagavad Gita (250 BC - 250 AD), Chapter 2

This gives me solace for a while...! :)

Ghazals I listen to lately...

Enjoying the Mehdi Hassan collection! These are the ones I am listening to:

बात करनी मुझे मुश्किल
भूली बिसरी चंद
देख तो दिल के जान से
जब तेरे नैन
पत्ता पत्ता बूटा बूटा
रंजिश ही सही

दिल की चिंगारियां

To the husband, soulmate and meaning of my life:

आप से अलेहदा होके प्यार को जाना है
आपके करीब होके खुदा को छुहा है

वह पागल समंदर की लहरें
पास बुलाती है गिर्दाब में

दिल की गहराइयां को किसने देखा
मगर मेरी किस्सों को आपने सुना

मेरे हमनाफास ये ज़माने से दूर
हमने पाया सुकून आपके इलफ़त में

Who is crazy?

This world is crazy
and I am crazier
I am laughing
when its time to cry
I am loving
when I need to kill

Today Im funky
tmrw is cranky
and I am lanky
I lost my key

Nothing makes sense
all is non-sense
u dont look at me
like I am ur baby
Im here with a motive
atleast I need to
look like that :)


Today Im funky
tmrw is cranky
and I am lanky
I lost my key

Men or women
friends or sweethearts
lovers or idiots
how does it matter
a bunch of cartoons
in my closet


Today Im funky
tmrw is cranky
and I am lanky
I lost my key

When I die
I will stop the lies
or maybe u can continue
and save this
beautiful empire!! :)

Bhaja Govindam!!

Morning times I wake up listening to the following:

• Suprabhatam
• Bhaja Govindam
• Lingashatkam

Its like the morning coffee and breaks my sleepiness.

Sridhar shared this linked with me as I got curious to understand the meaning of Bhaja Govindam(composed by Adi Shankracharya):

http://www.geocities.com/malibutemple/bhajagovind.htm

Picked from this site, let me share the meaning of Bhaja Govindam:

SANSKRIT VERSE bhaja govindam bhaja govindam govindam bhaja mUDhamate samprApte sannihite kAle nahi nahi rakShati dukrunjkaraNe mUDha jahihi dhanAgamatrshNAm kuru sadbuddhim manasi vitrshNam yallabhase nija karmopAttam vittam tena vinodaya cittam yavadvittopArjana saktah: tAvannija parivAro raktah: pashcAt jIvati jarjara dehe vArtAm kopi na prcchati gehe mA kuru dhana jana youvana garvam harati nimeShAt kala: sarvam mAyAmayam idam akhilam hitvA brahma padam tvam pravisha vidhitvA sura mandira taru mUla nivAsa: shayyA bhUtalam ajinam vAsa: sarva parigraha bhoga tyAga: kasya sukham na karoti virAga: bhagavat gIta kincitadhItA gangAjalalava kaNikApitA sahrdapi yena murAri samarca kriyate tasya yamena na carcA punarapi jananam punarapi maraNam punarapi jananI jaTare shayanam iha samsAre bahudustAre krpayA pAre pAhi murAre artham anartham bhavaya nityam nAstitata: sukhalesha: satyam putrAdapi dhana bhArjAm bhItih: sarvatraiShA vihitA rIti: geyam gItA nAma sahasram dhyeyam shrIpati rUpamajashram neyam sajjana sange cittam deyam dInajanAya ca vittam gurucharaNambuja nirbhara bhakta: samsAradacIradbhava mukta: sendriyamAnasa niyAmAdevam drakShyasi nija hrdayastam devam

TRANSLATION IN ENGLISH Adore the lord, adore the lord, Adore the lord O fool, When the appointed time (for departure) comes, the repetition of grammatical rules will not indeed save you. O fool, leave off the desire of wealth; create in the mind thoughts about reality, devoid of passion. what you get -i.e., what you have achieved through your past deeds -with that, satisfy your mind. As long as you have the ability to earn money, so long will your dependents be attached to you. After that, when you live with an infirm body, no one will even speak to you a word. Do not be proud of wealth, kindred and youth; Time takes away all these in a moment. Leaving aside this entire (world) which is of the nature of an illusion, and knowing the state of brahman, enter into it. Living in temples or at the foot of the trees, sleeping on the ground, wearing deer-skin, renouncing all possession and thier enjoyment - to whom will not dispassion bring happiness? For him, who has studied the Bhagavatgita, even a little, who has drunk a drop of the Gangawater, and who has performed the worship of the destroyer of the demon Mura (viz Srikrishna) at least once, there is no tiff with Yama Repeated birth, repeated death and repeated lying in mother's womb - this transmigratory process is extensive and difficult to cross; save me, O destroyer of Mura, through your grace. Wealth is no good: thus reflect always; there is not the least happiness there from; this is the truth. For the wealthy there is fear even from a son; everywhere this is the regular mode. The Bhagavatgita and the Sahasranama should be sung; the form of the lord of Lakshmi ( Vishnu) should be always meditated on; the mind should be led to the company of the good; and wealth should be distributed among the indigent. Being devoted completely to the lotus-feet of the Master, become released soon from the transmigratory process. Thus, through the discipline of sense and mind-control, you will behold the deity that resides in your heart.

After reading the meaning one may wonder why Adi Shankracharya compose these verses...check the wikepedia for it :)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bhaja_Govindam

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Another honour :)

I got a great news today morning that thrilled me totally, "Truth" blog has been selected the sticky site of the moment:

http://www.internetbumperstickers.com/sticky.html

If you are late in seeing this post, you can check the Sticky Site Archive.

I liked the following lines used to introduce this blog :)

"You've been looking for the truth all your life, right? Just like all of us. How about that, it was in Bangalore the whole time."

Hahaahaa....:)

Don't change the world...

...Change yourself. A good one I found on a photoblog

(http://www.photoblog.com/Maxine/2007/11/07/)

Protect the Body only!!

This was an awakening for me!!! I was attending Sadhguru's satsang in Bangalore and these words from him was a breakthrough. He says we all have to only be concerned about protecting our physical bodies and not beyond that. Though we spend a lot of time protecting our opinions, thoughts, religion, ideas, beliefs. I realised how much of it I do and cause misery to myself and people around me :)

Measuring Love...

Reading Paulo Coelho's "The Witch of Portobello", liked these lines:

"But time, as well as healing all wounds, taught me something strange too: that its possible to love more than one person in a lifetime. I remarried. I'm very happy with my new wife, and I can't imagine living without her. This, however, doesn't mean that I have to renounce all my past experiences, as long as I'm careful not to compare my two lives. You can't measure love the way you can the length of a road or the height of a building."

फिराक

हमारे मकान का इक मंज़र है
जहाँ इक ख़लिश है और नूर गुम है

मंज़र: Aspect, ख़लिश: Pain
नूर: लाइट, गुम: Missing

आप आये और अपना साया पहचाने
वही सियाही भरी रात के है नुमाएने

साया: Shadow, सियाही: Darkness
नुमाएने: Evidence

क्या दीदार करेंगे जो आप आगये
आंखें नाबीना हूईं है मुद्दत से

दीदार: Sight, नाबीना: Blind
मुद्दत: Awhile

Jaane Kya....

Haven't seen the movie "Pyaar ka side effects" but when I listened to this song...loved the lyrics and music

Jaane kya chahe mann baawra…
jaane kya chaahe mann baanwra
aankhiyan mere saawan chalaa

saghan aanchal sada hor hove
sajan ansuvan mein kya jor hove
kya jor hove, apne jiya pe
mann to mara ye manchala

jaane kya chaahe mann baanwra
aankhiyan mere saawan chalaa

pawan purva mein yun udta jaave
badra chanda se mann judta jaave
aave hawa ka, jhonka phir aisa
toote patang ki dor sa

jaane kya chaahe mann baanwra
aankhiyan mere saawan chalaa

- Jaane kya from ‘Pyaar ke side-effects’

Jaane Kya - Zubin....

Gloomy days

There are these days when I get completely exasperated with life in general. Every day goes by smoothly and comfortably but there are these days like the "speed-breakers" on the roads that discomposes me.

Undoubtedly, its just the family that endures it. My daughter is uncertain about my irrationality (imbibing some good family values ;-)) and husband who concludes that his fortitude has no bounds by putting up with my nonsensical rantings :) (he fails to register that I reciprocate similarly on his low days ;-))

"Reading, listening to Gurus, attending courses, yoga and meditation...huh!!..nothing has helped you.." is what Sridhar would declare(he has this crooked smile on his face) upon which I te-hee. I have a wide grin now as I type this out. Its just that when either of us are in the low or we are in combat to vilify each other the humor is even more heightened that results in good punch lines. When in solitude I often wonder if we look forward to these "not so smooth" days. Later, when I am telling Srid that I am very apologetic about my behaviour and not sure of how I happened to be so. He soothes my worries in his honeyed words "Oh whats fun without our little bickerings and squabbles" and I promptly accede. :)

"Gloomy days dont last for long
Life is nectared all along
All is frolic and Love is a song
Now I recognize where I belong"

Popeye and Spinach

Today after Nidhi finished her lunch and I was having mine I showed her spinach on my plate. Told her that this is what the Popeye character eats. My intention was more for information and not to entice her into eating. To my surprise though she began eating from my plate. I asked her if she liked it I will get her another bowl. She enjoyed lots of the cooked spinach to my amazement. She would often exclaim how strong she is getting and would show off her non-existent biceps :)

Learning for me: Cartoons make such a great impression on children and all my lecture and tricks dont help ;-)

I surfed the internet on Popeye and spinach and chose this link for you, check it out:

Eat Your Spinach

A break from the virtual world...

I am currently enjoying the disconnection from the virtual world. It aint a total cut off but the usage is moderate now.

There were some months of this year where I was so much part of this online world that most of my time, heart and life was spent on the internet.

The flip side is that I have got back to blogging strongly now. I dont want to leave writing on the blog. It helps me throw the crap in my head/heart out to the world. :)

I was sharing with my friend, we already live in this world called 'Maya', dont want to create lot of these smaller 'mayas' ;-)

Any change is good fun for me...so people who miss me on orkut, hold on...I will be back .....:)

[There is so much about me in this post...hmmm....its my blog guys ;-)]

Munh ki baat...

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