Pyar ka side effects.....

My conversation on chat with a friend on "love" :)
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ME: love catches one unawares

Friend: i guess

ME: sometimes we think we know it all
and we are in this good intellectual state
and love comes by
crashing our identity
intellect
fundas
and what not

Friend: so basiclly loves just screws us..one way or the other
ha ha ..

ME: well said
;-)
but if u want to see it as a true optimist
like me
I see it as a way to introspection
learning
knowing oneself
and changing course
lot of newness comes in us
and there is a fresh way we see ourselves
also one needs to realise the object we love
aint so lovely as much we make it
there is lot of our creation
and we lose touch with reality
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"Friend" didnt respond after this...must be thinking "YE KITNI PAKAATI HAI" ;-)

Helping Hand!

Mom always lectures ;-) "Support people when they need you" "Dont miss opportunities to help people"

For years I didnt have the discernment to comprehend this and was ignorant of the growth I was missing.

From past 4-5 years though, I am cognizant to this aspect of life. One of the discoveries is that when I give more importance to the community around me, my self worth has actually risen.

Spirits are lively and blithe. Everyday is satisfying because life always has a cause when I am thinking outwards and rather indulging in the self.

I have even gone to the extent of being kind to many who have been unkind to me. I empathize with the individuals I have hurt and give them a true and sincere apology. To respect them, whom I thought I didnt require as they didnt seem to fit in my scheme of things.

Before now, I would have been very hesitant to do such acts, but now I apprehend it all. There are no loose ends, no hangups and my heart is expanding.

I am "no different" from the other human, I am the world. I am ONE with all!

I am devoid of hatred, revenge, hurtful feelings....too good to be true??...huh!! ;-)

...And you can be too, just a shift in thinking :)

Job and Hikes!

Its hard to accept, the words are stuck in his throat. Life couldnt be this!! He resigns himself to his fate. Its always the smarter ones who succeed in the career path. Whoever cared about hard work. Yeah yeah, everyone wants a smooth guy. With all these thoughts in his mind he heads out of the manager's cabin. He has got a 3% hike and he is shocked...

Its been 3 years at the job and Mr Mehenti was the person at all times. Normal work and he was there, crisis time and he was slogging out the hours at work. He just kept doing the work with all focus and concentration. He didnt expect anything from the job but just to do it best and to do it right.

"Now what should I do? Should I look for another job or do I continue the way I was..? What do I do? Help me!!! "

Please help Mr Mehenti!

Fantasies, Dreams and Life!!!

Right now I can see life like carrying a remote with 3 buttons: Fantasy, Dreams and Life
What a luxury!!! All of these states are great...for some I may sound crazy ;-)

Just imagine, I press this button and there I go fantasizing. I am on this beautiful, exotic place...gardens, flowers, the sky and there I am sitting and writing poetry...wow!! :)

The next button, and I am dreaming in the night. It is involuntary but to some extent my state of mind does influence it. I am dreaming of an era gone by, so many 1000 years ago. Struggling as a woman, living my life in those restrains. It feels so true...it is about helplessness and when I grow out of it, it is about maturity. Not making sense to you? Just get it that I am living in a different time altogether!

And then I wake up and press the button "Life". Woaaah...what a wonderful morning! Let me start my day listening to Suprabhatam. Yoga and meditation makes me feel so much in place...and I am off to work!!

Then I press the next button and the next and I must say I am freaking out friends...;-)

Love is not lost

He told me "Remember that gal I told you about, it’s all over!" "I cannot believe its true, did it really happen?” "I wish she would come back to me"

How we all wish our loved ones living or dead came back to us? Those unfulfilled desires, love that was lost.

I tell my friend "Love isn’t lost" and maybe this was destined to happen for there is a better life waiting.

He is tired and sleepy, had been lamenting over it the whole day. "Thanks for your kindness!! Will surely take your advice on this tomorrow, now I got to sleep" :) :)

Surely my “gyaan” won’t spare you friend for I learnt that love is not lost, its always there within us and if you care you will discover it!! :)

“I hold it true, whatever befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”
Alfred, Lord Tennyson quotes (English poet often regarded as the chief representative of the Victorian age in poetry, 1809-1892)

I guess this would make more sense:

“'Tis better to have loved and lost than to do homework with three children”
(Quote picked up from the internet)

The Seeker

And we dream when young... The world is ours and there are no worries. As age passes by dreams have lesser or no meaning. Life loses its thrills and excitement. There is little left to aspire for. Its getting so tough, need to keep the mind sane and the body in shape. The seasons dont matter at all, as everything is a struggle.

Is this why we are here..? To realise at the end that it was just to die...to leave everything and go whatever we had desired most.

And we die with the mysteries unsolved...what is life and what is death?

Some say we care less to know, why waste time on this...just live :)

I am a seeker, I search for the knowledge...find lots around, makes sense for a while but I dont get the Truth.

For certain is death for the born
And certain is birth for the dead;
Therefore over the inevitable
Thou shouldst not grieve.
Bhagavad Gita (250 BC - 250 AD), Chapter 2

This gives me solace for a while...! :)

Ghazals I listen to lately...

Enjoying the Mehdi Hassan collection! These are the ones I am listening to:

बात करनी मुझे मुश्किल
भूली बिसरी चंद
देख तो दिल के जान से
जब तेरे नैन
पत्ता पत्ता बूटा बूटा
रंजिश ही सही

दिल की चिंगारियां

To the husband, soulmate and meaning of my life:

आप से अलेहदा होके प्यार को जाना है
आपके करीब होके खुदा को छुहा है

वह पागल समंदर की लहरें
पास बुलाती है गिर्दाब में

दिल की गहराइयां को किसने देखा
मगर मेरी किस्सों को आपने सुना

मेरे हमनाफास ये ज़माने से दूर
हमने पाया सुकून आपके इलफ़त में

Who is crazy?

This world is crazy
and I am crazier
I am laughing
when its time to cry
I am loving
when I need to kill

Today Im funky
tmrw is cranky
and I am lanky
I lost my key

Nothing makes sense
all is non-sense
u dont look at me
like I am ur baby
Im here with a motive
atleast I need to
look like that :)


Today Im funky
tmrw is cranky
and I am lanky
I lost my key

Men or women
friends or sweethearts
lovers or idiots
how does it matter
a bunch of cartoons
in my closet


Today Im funky
tmrw is cranky
and I am lanky
I lost my key

When I die
I will stop the lies
or maybe u can continue
and save this
beautiful empire!! :)

Bhaja Govindam!!

Morning times I wake up listening to the following:

• Suprabhatam
• Bhaja Govindam
• Lingashatkam

Its like the morning coffee and breaks my sleepiness.

Sridhar shared this linked with me as I got curious to understand the meaning of Bhaja Govindam(composed by Adi Shankracharya):

http://www.geocities.com/malibutemple/bhajagovind.htm

Picked from this site, let me share the meaning of Bhaja Govindam:

SANSKRIT VERSE bhaja govindam bhaja govindam govindam bhaja mUDhamate samprApte sannihite kAle nahi nahi rakShati dukrunjkaraNe mUDha jahihi dhanAgamatrshNAm kuru sadbuddhim manasi vitrshNam yallabhase nija karmopAttam vittam tena vinodaya cittam yavadvittopArjana saktah: tAvannija parivAro raktah: pashcAt jIvati jarjara dehe vArtAm kopi na prcchati gehe mA kuru dhana jana youvana garvam harati nimeShAt kala: sarvam mAyAmayam idam akhilam hitvA brahma padam tvam pravisha vidhitvA sura mandira taru mUla nivAsa: shayyA bhUtalam ajinam vAsa: sarva parigraha bhoga tyAga: kasya sukham na karoti virAga: bhagavat gIta kincitadhItA gangAjalalava kaNikApitA sahrdapi yena murAri samarca kriyate tasya yamena na carcA punarapi jananam punarapi maraNam punarapi jananI jaTare shayanam iha samsAre bahudustAre krpayA pAre pAhi murAre artham anartham bhavaya nityam nAstitata: sukhalesha: satyam putrAdapi dhana bhArjAm bhItih: sarvatraiShA vihitA rIti: geyam gItA nAma sahasram dhyeyam shrIpati rUpamajashram neyam sajjana sange cittam deyam dInajanAya ca vittam gurucharaNambuja nirbhara bhakta: samsAradacIradbhava mukta: sendriyamAnasa niyAmAdevam drakShyasi nija hrdayastam devam

TRANSLATION IN ENGLISH Adore the lord, adore the lord, Adore the lord O fool, When the appointed time (for departure) comes, the repetition of grammatical rules will not indeed save you. O fool, leave off the desire of wealth; create in the mind thoughts about reality, devoid of passion. what you get -i.e., what you have achieved through your past deeds -with that, satisfy your mind. As long as you have the ability to earn money, so long will your dependents be attached to you. After that, when you live with an infirm body, no one will even speak to you a word. Do not be proud of wealth, kindred and youth; Time takes away all these in a moment. Leaving aside this entire (world) which is of the nature of an illusion, and knowing the state of brahman, enter into it. Living in temples or at the foot of the trees, sleeping on the ground, wearing deer-skin, renouncing all possession and thier enjoyment - to whom will not dispassion bring happiness? For him, who has studied the Bhagavatgita, even a little, who has drunk a drop of the Gangawater, and who has performed the worship of the destroyer of the demon Mura (viz Srikrishna) at least once, there is no tiff with Yama Repeated birth, repeated death and repeated lying in mother's womb - this transmigratory process is extensive and difficult to cross; save me, O destroyer of Mura, through your grace. Wealth is no good: thus reflect always; there is not the least happiness there from; this is the truth. For the wealthy there is fear even from a son; everywhere this is the regular mode. The Bhagavatgita and the Sahasranama should be sung; the form of the lord of Lakshmi ( Vishnu) should be always meditated on; the mind should be led to the company of the good; and wealth should be distributed among the indigent. Being devoted completely to the lotus-feet of the Master, become released soon from the transmigratory process. Thus, through the discipline of sense and mind-control, you will behold the deity that resides in your heart.

After reading the meaning one may wonder why Adi Shankracharya compose these verses...check the wikepedia for it :)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bhaja_Govindam

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Another honour :)

I got a great news today morning that thrilled me totally, "Truth" blog has been selected the sticky site of the moment:

http://www.internetbumperstickers.com/sticky.html

If you are late in seeing this post, you can check the Sticky Site Archive.

I liked the following lines used to introduce this blog :)

"You've been looking for the truth all your life, right? Just like all of us. How about that, it was in Bangalore the whole time."

Hahaahaa....:)

Don't change the world...

...Change yourself. A good one I found on a photoblog

(http://www.photoblog.com/Maxine/2007/11/07/)

Protect the Body only!!

This was an awakening for me!!! I was attending Sadhguru's satsang in Bangalore and these words from him was a breakthrough. He says we all have to only be concerned about protecting our physical bodies and not beyond that. Though we spend a lot of time protecting our opinions, thoughts, religion, ideas, beliefs. I realised how much of it I do and cause misery to myself and people around me :)

Measuring Love...

Reading Paulo Coelho's "The Witch of Portobello", liked these lines:

"But time, as well as healing all wounds, taught me something strange too: that its possible to love more than one person in a lifetime. I remarried. I'm very happy with my new wife, and I can't imagine living without her. This, however, doesn't mean that I have to renounce all my past experiences, as long as I'm careful not to compare my two lives. You can't measure love the way you can the length of a road or the height of a building."

फिराक

हमारे मकान का इक मंज़र है
जहाँ इक ख़लिश है और नूर गुम है

मंज़र: Aspect, ख़लिश: Pain
नूर: लाइट, गुम: Missing

आप आये और अपना साया पहचाने
वही सियाही भरी रात के है नुमाएने

साया: Shadow, सियाही: Darkness
नुमाएने: Evidence

क्या दीदार करेंगे जो आप आगये
आंखें नाबीना हूईं है मुद्दत से

दीदार: Sight, नाबीना: Blind
मुद्दत: Awhile

Jaane Kya....

Haven't seen the movie "Pyaar ka side effects" but when I listened to this song...loved the lyrics and music

Jaane kya chahe mann baawra…
jaane kya chaahe mann baanwra
aankhiyan mere saawan chalaa

saghan aanchal sada hor hove
sajan ansuvan mein kya jor hove
kya jor hove, apne jiya pe
mann to mara ye manchala

jaane kya chaahe mann baanwra
aankhiyan mere saawan chalaa

pawan purva mein yun udta jaave
badra chanda se mann judta jaave
aave hawa ka, jhonka phir aisa
toote patang ki dor sa

jaane kya chaahe mann baanwra
aankhiyan mere saawan chalaa

- Jaane kya from ‘Pyaar ke side-effects’

Jaane Kya - Zubin....

Gloomy days

There are these days when I get completely exasperated with life in general. Every day goes by smoothly and comfortably but there are these days like the "speed-breakers" on the roads that discomposes me.

Undoubtedly, its just the family that endures it. My daughter is uncertain about my irrationality (imbibing some good family values ;-)) and husband who concludes that his fortitude has no bounds by putting up with my nonsensical rantings :) (he fails to register that I reciprocate similarly on his low days ;-))

"Reading, listening to Gurus, attending courses, yoga and meditation...huh!!..nothing has helped you.." is what Sridhar would declare(he has this crooked smile on his face) upon which I te-hee. I have a wide grin now as I type this out. Its just that when either of us are in the low or we are in combat to vilify each other the humor is even more heightened that results in good punch lines. When in solitude I often wonder if we look forward to these "not so smooth" days. Later, when I am telling Srid that I am very apologetic about my behaviour and not sure of how I happened to be so. He soothes my worries in his honeyed words "Oh whats fun without our little bickerings and squabbles" and I promptly accede. :)

"Gloomy days dont last for long
Life is nectared all along
All is frolic and Love is a song
Now I recognize where I belong"

Popeye and Spinach

Today after Nidhi finished her lunch and I was having mine I showed her spinach on my plate. Told her that this is what the Popeye character eats. My intention was more for information and not to entice her into eating. To my surprise though she began eating from my plate. I asked her if she liked it I will get her another bowl. She enjoyed lots of the cooked spinach to my amazement. She would often exclaim how strong she is getting and would show off her non-existent biceps :)

Learning for me: Cartoons make such a great impression on children and all my lecture and tricks dont help ;-)

I surfed the internet on Popeye and spinach and chose this link for you, check it out:

Eat Your Spinach

A break from the virtual world...

I am currently enjoying the disconnection from the virtual world. It aint a total cut off but the usage is moderate now.

There were some months of this year where I was so much part of this online world that most of my time, heart and life was spent on the internet.

The flip side is that I have got back to blogging strongly now. I dont want to leave writing on the blog. It helps me throw the crap in my head/heart out to the world. :)

I was sharing with my friend, we already live in this world called 'Maya', dont want to create lot of these smaller 'mayas' ;-)

Any change is good fun for me...so people who miss me on orkut, hold on...I will be back .....:)

[There is so much about me in this post...hmmm....its my blog guys ;-)]

Munh ki baat...

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muuNh kii baatein sune har koii, dil ke dard ko jaane kaun
aavaazon ke baazaaron mein Khaamoshii pahachaane kaun

sadiyon sadiyon vahii tamaashaa rastaa rastaa lambii khoj
lekin jab ham mil jaate hain, kho jaataa hai jaane kaun

vo meraa aaiinaa hai main us kii parachhaaii huuN
mere hii ghar men rahataa hai, mujh jaisaa hii jaane kaun

kiran kiran alsata suuraj, palak palak khulatii niinden
dheeme dheeme bhikhar raha hai, zarraa zarraa jaane kaun


[Blog ka writings padeh har koi, dil ka dard na jaane kaun ;-)]

Terrorism...

Call me an emotional fool but a tragedy like the blasts in Hyderabad moved me to tears. Whenever I read about the victims, their families my heart reaches out to them. I kept wondering 'why terrorism?'. What makes these people terrorize the world by killing?

Maybe we need a God to come down to earth who can take in all the hatred, all the pain that mankind goes through so that it doesnt have to hurt a hapless victim who was not part of this.

In a big way we are responsible for what the terrorists are going through and what the victims are facing. One may ask 'why me?' "The terrorists are a bunch of lunatics and what control do I have"

We all are to blame for creating the hatred within them. Reasons being: ignored, sidelined, hated, poverty etc...
As a society we have collective responsibility and nothing can start unless one begins to realise this as an individual.

I have a great tool in my hand, a prayer everyday for "peace in the world"

[The prayer thing is an inspiration from the Isha Yoga group who pray at 6:30pm everyday for peace in the world]

Here comes weekend....

I am looking forward to the weekend not because I am happy that I dont have to work. Weekend has a different set of activities for me: Its about outings, movies, some relaxed family time, completing pending work at home, community service activities, catching up with friends...:)
The list is endless and the fun too....:)

Hiatus in blogging

For a person like me boredom gets me pretty fast...but here in my blog from past 2 years I have been boring people with the same topics: spirituality, philosophy and love. Frankly I can write more on these, especially a lot on 'love' :). I have decided to spare my readers...!!!

I was thinking of writing on my 'job' but dunno how to put it down in bloggy style ;-)

Contemplating on writing on a topic I havent delved on...

Right now nothing angers me, nothing hurts me, nothing confuses me...life is in a state of bliss..:)...so I am out of ideas friends :)

You can check my photoblog though...lots happening there :)

Thats only for now, gimme a few days and I am back with some new material!

Choices!

Life is about choices, the ones we make with full awareness and the ones that happen to us :) We fail to take responsiblity for the ones that happen to us(I cant forget the Landmark game of chosing icecream played on me by Puri :)) and some of us dont want to take responsibility for anything in life.

As a mere mortal we dont have any control over the choice of life and death (yes if we were expanded souls we could understand that it does extend to life and death but let me leave it at just the time between birth and death). We do have control over choices as we live each day of our life. The past is gone (not for most of us, ask me :)). The present actions we take, as an outcome of choices we make every moment...is where we can see consequences as desired.

(Friends from Landmark and Isha, guess you would be able to relate to some of this :))

Easier said...!

Life is so simple, its rules simpler but we have really made it so complicated and complex. I sometimes feel I am so creative in making things tough and difficult for myself. Confusion is a more comfortable state we love to be in :)

Today while reading the book "The Tibetan book of living and dying", I got inspired by this simple rule of life.

"Shantideva said:
Whatever joy there is in this world
All comes from desiring others to be happy
And whatever suffering there is in this world
All comes from desiring myself to be happy"

Well easier said then followed...!
Its very much a possibility though.

Tears of Gratitude

Today while commuting to work I pondered about the way I am living life. What I reflected was the times I experienced tears was in times of pain and only immense pain can touch me. As life proceeds I get accustomed to some kinds of pain and I am now immune and totally numbed.

As my mind kept leading me into different realms of knowledge available in the universe I asked myself this question "Do I have gratitude? Gratitude for anything in this world?" The answer to this question was in the form of tears in my eyes. When we think of gratitude there is sudden love for the entire creation.

This reminded me of what Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev says about tears:

Tears have got nothing to do with sadness and pain. Whenever any experience becomes very intense, tears flow.

If tears of love, joy, and ecstasy have not washed your cheeks, you are yet to taste life.

I remember reading an article written by Sadhguru which I am not able to trace now, where he mentions that the only deep emotion most of us have understood is pain and thats the reason we express tears then. We all are yet to experience tears of love, joy and ecstasy.

I am the reason

Saturday night, Nidhi and I were in the auto going towards MG Road to meet friends for dinner. We stopped at a traffic signal. When we got the green signal and started moving, abruptly the vehicles' movement slowed down. As we were edging, I looked out to see what was slowing us down and saw a person wearing a jacket "I am the reason" struggling with his bike which wouldn't start, he then had to push it to the side of the road. I was amused "Oh this is the guy who interrupted the traffic movement, and he is pretty sure that he is the reason" :)

Drunk...

On Sunday night returning from the Isha Yoga class at around 9pm, I stop at a signal near the end of inner ring road. On the left of me I see a less crowded road merging at the junction. A scooter with a young man and woman is slowing down to stop and nearby a cyclist is slowing down too. The cyclist gets close to the young couple and starts talking. He point to the rear of his cycle and then a fight ensues. The cyclist looks like a man nearing his 60s and the youth around 25. Initially the scooterist is perplexed and not sure whats happening. The old man though continues his blabber and looks like some words have angered the young man as he starts arguing back animatedly.

I get the green signal and start moving. As I go past the two I can see the youth raise his fist on the old man to show anger and threaten him...

This old man had just come out from the bar which was behind where the cyclist stood and fought. One could see that he was drunk but the youth didnt seem to realise that else he wouldnt have bothered to fight with the drunkard.

How many times in life we get into fights with people who are drunk with pride, power, ego, ignorance and hatred. We get carried away and get into a serious altercation. If we knew these people were drunk we wouldnt have wasted our time...:)

...And then there are times when we are in this drunk state and provoke fights with people around!!

Broken Promises

Pledges and vows are made
Hearts filled with love & purity
The joy and the moment lived
Promises of undying love
With caresses and embraces

Transgressing the land of love
To leave behind bleeding souls
Snubbing and mocking lovers
Walking the long but chosen path
Alone & cold towards the light

Its penance but no remorse
Painted pictures of time gone by
Immaculate love and divine lovers
But now apathetic and cold-blooded
One is deemed to be condemned

Kneeling down, head bent low
Entreating the divine souls to
Safeguard the shattered hearts
Liberating the incarcerated spirit
To preserve a timeless souvenir

More from 'The Pilgrimage'

I do most of my reading in the auto, yeah once I start driving the car I wont be able to do that :)
Anyway today I completed reading 'The Pilgrimage' written by Paulo Coelho. It was walking the path of learning along with Paulo on his pilgrimage on the Road to Santiago.

Sharing some more excerpts from the book:

"In the same way, a disciple such as you can never imitate his guide's steps. You have your own way of living your life, of dealing with problems, and of winning. Teaching is only demonstrating that it is possible. Learning is making it possible for yourself"
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"Didn't I tell you? Once a problem is solved, its simplicity is amazing."
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"I began to feel great pain, because now I knew that I was only one step from success; this is the moment when one's strength begins to flag, and one loses confidence in oneself. On a few occasions in my life I had lost in the last minute - swum across the ocean and drowned in the surf of regret. But I was on the Road to Santiago, and that old experience must not be allowed to repeat itself - I had to win.
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"But there are problems in our lives that require us to choose between one way and another. Everyday problems, like a business decision, the breakup of a relationship, a social obligation. Each of these small decisions we have to make, throughout our lives, might represent a choice between life and death. When you leave the house in the morning on your way to work, you might choose one means of transportation that will drop you safe and sound or another that is going to crash and kill its passengers. This is a radical example how a simple decision may affect us for the rest of our lives."
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"The only way to make the right decision is to know what the wrong decision is," he said after I had mentioned my concern. "You have to examine the other path, without fear and without being morbid, and then decide"
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"Life always teaches us more than the Road to Santiago does," he answered. "But we don't have much faith in what life teaches us."
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"We are not smart enough to be able to listen to the silence! We are just human beings, and we don't even know how to listen to our ramblings..."
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"Everything is contained in sounds - the past, the present, and the future. The person who does not know how to listen will never hear the advice that life offers us all the time. And only the person who listens to the sound of the moment is able to make the right decisions."
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"And when I think about it, I guess it is true that people always arrive at the right moment at the place where someone awaits them."
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Naam Ada Likhna...

Srid on the flight heading again on his official trips and singing this for him today...:)

Song: Naam Ada Likhna
Movie: Yahaan
Play song:

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Lyrics:

Poochein jo koi meri nishaani rang heena likhna
Gore badan pe ungli se mera naam aada likhna
Kabhi kabhi aas paas chand rehta hain
Kabhi kabhi aas paas shaam rehti hain

Aao na aao na
jhelum mein behlenge
waadi ke mausam bhi ek din toh badlenge
kabhi kabhi aas paas chand rehta hain
kabhi kabhi aas paas shaam rehti hain

aau toh subaha jaau toh mera naam sabah likhna
barf pade toh barf pe mera naam dua likhna
zara zara aag waag pass rehti hain
zara zara kaangdi ki aanch rehti hain
kabhi kabhi aas paas chand rehta hain
kabhi kabhi aas paas shaam rehti hain
(shaamein bujhane aati hain raatein
raatein bujhane tum aa gaye ho)

jab tum haste ho din ho jaata hain
tum gale lago toh din so jaata hain
doli uthane aayega din toh
pass bitha lena
kal jo miley toh
mathe pe mere suraj uga dena
(zara zara aas paas dhup rahegi
zara zara aas paas rang rahenge) - 2

Love or Friendship?

You are always in this buoyant mood when you visit me. You knock on the door but when I look into the peephole you place your finger to block the view and well I know for sure it is you. And there you are with your boyish charm.

I welcome you in and you have lots to say about your day. I tell you to settle down and ask if you need coffee. You tell you dont like too much of it and so I make half a cup for you and a full one for myself.

We settle down and chat....I think we could chat for ages. I feel so comfortable with you, like a childhood friend.

I get a call from my Mom on my mobile. You start your pranks again...tickling me in my ribs...my Mom asks why I am breaking into laughter and I tell her it’s nothing I am just happy.

We decide to go out for dinner and as I go out to lock the door, you walk stealthily behind me and when I turn around, you make funny faces in the dark room. I wait for you to come out threatening you that I will lock you in and you are out with a wide smile on your face. Remembering it today still makes me laugh so much...

We head for dinner, searching for eating places around, you keep cursing me about not eating non-vegetarian food, as that makes the options lesser around being a foreign land.

Back from dinner and it is time for you to go home. I walk with you to the station. It looks like another day ended, feels so normal but when I look back today I miss the friend, the boy and the fun that was stuck in fleeting moments. The love, which hit upon me when it was time for us to go our ways.

सामुदायिक प्रार्थना

I love this prayer, enjoy listening it on the Sanskar Channel. If you are keen switch on your TV at 6am :), here you go:



है प्रार्थना गुरुदेव से यह स्वर्ग्सम संसार हो
अति उच्चतम जीवन बने पर्मातमय व्यवहार हो
ना हम रहे अपने लिए हमको सभी से गरज़ है
गुरुदेव यह आशीश दे जो सोचने का फ़र्ज़ है

हम हो पुजारी तत्व के, गुरुदेव के आदेश के
सच प्रेम के नित नेम के, सत्धर्म के सत्कर्म के
हो चिढ झूठी राह की, अन्याय की अभिमान की
सेवा कारन को दास की, परवाह नहीं हो जान की

छोटे ना हो हम बुद्धी से, हो विश्व्मय से ईश्मय
हो राममय और कृष्न्मय, जगदेव में जगदीश्मय
हर ईन्द्रीयों पर ताव कर, हम वीर हो अति धीर हो
उज्जवल रहे सरस सदा, निज धरमरथ समबीर हो

अत्तिशुध हो आचार से, तन मन हमारा सर्वदा
आध्यात्मा कि शक्ति हमें, पल भी नहीं कर दे जुदा
इस अमर आत्मा का हमें, हर श्वास भर में गम रहें
गर मौत भी आ गयी, सुख दुःख में हम सम रहें

हे गुरुदेव हम सबको सद्बुद्धि दे
सतकर्त्व्य करने की परवर्ती दे
सच बोलने का अभ्यास दे
सतस्वरूप का ज्ञान दे

ॐ नमः शिवायः ! ॐ नमः शिवायः ! ॐ नमः शिवायः !

About Death from the book "The Pilgrimage" - Paulo Coelho

Sharing some passages from Paulo Coelho’s book “The Pilgrimage” from the chapter “Death” which I am reading now:

"Human beings are the only ones in nature who are aware that they will die. For that reason and only that reason, I have a profound respect for the human race, and I believe that its future is going to be much better that it’s present. Even knowing that their days are numbered and that everything will end when they least expect it, people make of their lives a battle that is worthy of a being with eternal life. What people regard as vanity - leaving great works, having children, acting in such a way as to one's name from being forgotten - I regard as the highest expression of human dignity.

"Still, being fragile creatures, humans always try to hide from themselves the certainty that they will die. They do not see that it is death itself that motivates them to do the best things in their lives. They are afraid to step into the dark, afraid of the unknown, and their only way of conquering that fear it to ignore the fact that their days are numbered. They do not see that with an awareness of death, they would be able to be even more daring, to go much further in their daily conquests, because they would have nothing to lose - for death is inevitable"

The second paragraph reminds me of the book “The Tibetan book of living and dying” written by Sogyal Rinpoche. We live our life without realizing the importance of Death, avoiding its talk & ignoring its reality. Allowing it to be part of our thought process helps us live fulfilling lives.

Alvida

Song of Life In a Metro
Song : Alvida.... Kaise Keh Diya Alvida
Play song:

Alvida - K K.mp3

Lyrics
chupake se kahin, dheeme paanv se
jaane kis taraf, kis ghadi
aage badh gaye hamse raahon mein
par tum toh abhi the yahin
kuchh bhi na suna, kab ka tha gila
kaise keh diya alvida

jinake darmiya gujri thi abhi
kal tak yeh meri zindagi
dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko
hum bhi kar chale alvida
alvida, alvida, meri raahein alvida
meri saansein kehati hai, alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida

sunle bekhabar, yuun aankhein pher kar aaj tu chali ja
dhundegi nazar humko hi magar har jagah
aisi raaton mein leke karvate, yaad hamein karna
aur phir haar kar kehna kyun magar, keh diya alvida alvida
koi puchhe toh zara, kya socha aur kaha alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida

Hum the dil jale, phir bhi dil kahe
kaash mere sang aaj hote tum agar, hoti har dagar gulsita
tumse hai khafa, hum naaraaz hai, dil hai pareshaan
socha na suna tune kyun bhala keh diya alvida alvida
koi puchhe toh zara, kya socha aur kaha alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida

kyun socha aur kahan alvida
dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko
hum bhi kar chale alvida

Losing and Love!

I am sobbing in agony as we part, my vision is blurred yet the picture is as bright and clarion as daylight. "I got to go" I say. You would kill me for it but I say what I have to say.

Losing each other is equitable, condignly punished by pain, love to be smothered, we need to go ahead. Like a cruel parent to a kid, we ought to make those harsh decisions.

"Can we be friends?" I ask..."Friends?" You look at me, a newfound enemy making an outrageous statement...I imagine you reaching for your sword again :)

As I look back today reminiscing over the romantic and passionate days, I can see the softness in our eyes, the warmth, the promised kisses...the hugs from the distance. There is a feeling of loss but also a feeling of victory. Mastery of the senses, an escape from perdition to a life beyond one's desires.

Monday Blues!!

On a monday morning when the maid hasnt turned up, got loads of office work to finish and friends say "you dont care" :). What I like about all this is that all of its true ;-), what I am unhappy about is that there are some friends who care and some who care more than needed...Leave me alone with my worries please..........!! I dont need any help...I love being sad and alone.........!!! :)

Sridhar just requested me in the morning "Since the maid hasnt come dont put her anger on me". This is the time I need my husband :) I tell him "nowadays you arent a good punching bag too..forget it...";-)

My friend tries to help me, she says "things will be fine for u", that actually puts a cheer on me...I like friends who are like butterflies who give u the cheer and move on...dont weigh u down with their presence...especially when one is facing such crisis situations...:)

Suraj sa chamkein hum!!

Every morning when I get Nidhi ready for school I sing this song "Suraj sa chamkein hum" and she loves it. I love it too...and listening to it now when I am away from Nidhi, home, my country I love so much...:)..brings tears to my eyes...!!!
(Well I am back soon to India soon, another 2 days :) )

If you share the same passion, you will enjoy this song:

Main Jahaan Rahoon - Lyrics

I like this song...and wud love to dedicate this again to my friend...:)
[And if its u friend reading this, u know that anything Punjabi to me is good memories..I liked the movie bcos of the Punjabi story...:)]

Hindi Song Title: Main Jahaan Rahoon, Main Kahin Bhi Hoon
Hindi Movie/Album Name: NAMASTEY LONDON
Singer(s): RAHAT FATEH ALI KHAN, KRISHNA


Hindi Lyrics:
(main jahaan rahoon
main kahin bhi hoon
teri yaad saaath hai) - 2

kisi se kahoon
ke nahi kahoon
yeh jo dil ki baat hai
kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai
per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
bas yaad saath hai
teri yaad saaath hai - 3
main jahaan rahoon
main kahin bhi hoon
teri yaad saaath hai

kahin to dil mein yaadon ki
ek suli gad jaati hai
kahin har ek tasveer bhahut hi dhondhali pad jati hai
koi nayi duniya ke naye rango mein khush rehta hai
koi sab kuch paake bhi yeh mann hi mann kehta hai
kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai
per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
bas yaad saath hai
teri yaad saaath hai - 3

kahin to beete kal ki jadein
dil mein hi utar jaati hai
kahin jo dhage tute to malaayen bhikar jaati
koi dil mein jagah nayi, baaton ke liye rakhta hai
koi apni palko par yaadon ke diye rakhta hai
kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai
per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
bas yaad saath hai
teri yaad saaath hai - 3

Today's Fortune

There is a "Today's Fortune" on "Orkut". I rarely see it because I dont believe that we need to know about life before hand...removes all the fun :)

But this one was good, less a fortune for the day and more a message:

"Your happiness is intertwined with your outlook on life"

Sanu Ik Pal Chain Na Aave....

Got introduced to Rahat Ali Khan by my dear brother Mudit. He has introduced me to some great music. Sharing some Rahat's songs:

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Main jahan bhi rahoon

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Man Ki Lagan

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Sanu Ik Pal Chain Na Aave....

Rebirth

The whiteness of the moon
the purity of her soul
As she leans on a tree
She can feel the bark
on her bare back

She Looks up to see the moon
and the tree bend downwards
to be closer to them
all nature is in one
with the lovers

Its a rebirth Its love
And its him
glowing in the moonlight
near her warm bosom
calling the name of God

Fills her with life
Makes her a Goddess
She is reborn
for love to give
and receive

He is her breath
and nurtures their child
The Heavens sent him
To create paradise for her

What an attitude?

Many of us remark "Look at her she has got attitude" or "He has got one helluva attitude". I believe they arent to be hated or detested. They are just insecure people with lot of attitude (hee hee...). Jokes apart wanted to make a point here, people put an attitude as protection from fears and insecurities which come from their past experiences. So next time u can shoot a prayer "God Bless that guy/gal with the attitude" ;-)

Getting on an ego trip..which I usually do...;-)...I dont think I have any attitude...ask my friends ...some of them are such pompous people, they may not respond to you. ;-)

Hey I gonna stop writing this post...I am insane today....!!!

Haaa haaa...today my friend remarked "U r always on such a high. If it aint drugs...what could it be?"........dunno just having this heart beating is enuf I guess....;-)

What I need for my work?

Keep learning
Make a daily self training schedule
Research
Analyze
Focus
Refer Manuals everytime
Keep the confidence level high
Pat myself when I get something right
Tests with different functions and data (testbed, testv2)
Tests on DCE, ISS, Workbench
Learn all feature of Lotus Notes
Learn Unix, AWK
Learn MSSQL
Textpad - learn all features
Keep checking updates on Lotus Notes

Gosh! Good I made this list...looks a little clearer now ;-)

Advantages of meeting me!!

The advantages of meeting a person like me:

Wide Smile
Lots of Fun
Friendly
Party-Party-Party
Craziness (a very good thing ;-) )
Zest for life
Love for everything in life (Good, Not so Good, Bad, Not so Bad, Best and the Worst)
Great Family
My Cook makes bad food (keeps u healthy)
Chatting
Silence (Can be silent for hours if you dont like my jabber)

Not many advantages I guess..;-)

I pray for Tears to cool my pain :)

If life is pain sometimes, thank God for it! :). Thank the beauty of life!

Tears blocked somewhere in my being and the heart weighs a rock. If friends forget and move on, if love changes its course and I am stranded to fend for myself....for a new life?

This emptiness, this loneliness, and this loss it will not kill me. It will consume me in its vastness. I surrender to love and as much as I do to this pain within.

What I thought existed? It never did... I choose the path of pain. I know the destination, I know this road...I paved it :)

Maybe these verses will explain better :)

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Roodade Gham E Ulfat

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Gham Is Qadar Badhe

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Tang Aa Chuke Hain

Paulo Coelho's "By the River Piedra I sat down and wept"

The side effects after reading a Paulo Coelho book: "I am in a trance". Its entering a new realm of spirituality. It occurs every time I read his book. In his books, he displays various shades of life and the growth of inner self. In this book "By the River Piedra I sat down and wept" he shows the path of freedom is not necessarily the path thats been traversed by others. The most trodden path looks easy and less risky but the path thats new and adventurous is the one we dont see, we are ignorant of. Its the road that relieves us from bondages of our fears. We can pave a new road that connects us to our soul. And we are the best judges for that....

The book takes us along a love story of a woman who meets her childhood love to find he has become a spiritual master who can do miracles. She takes the path she always feared and surrenders to love. After this joyous discovery she fears losing him to his spiritual cause as she loves him so much. She loses him to his mission and cries by the river Piedra full of memories of the recent past...!

Some excerpts from his book:

"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen"

"Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking the risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won't suffer the way people do when they have dreams to follow..."

"There are many ways to commit suicide. Those who try to kill the body violate God's law. Those who try to kill the soul also violate God's law, even though their crime is less visible to others"

Another article of mine!!! :)

Hey I found another article of mine (written in 2004) referred in a site...and again just feels good...so sharing the link:

http://theselfpages.tripod.com/id45.html

How healthy are u?

Just thot will make this blog more interactive..enuf of myself..;-)
Lemme know u?

So pop this qn to all my blog readers...

"How healthy u think u are?"

If u dont want to answer it bcos u felt the qn was silly, u can write in the comments section "bad question", "silly qn", "u nuts?" ;-)

More qns to come by...just wanna know u sweeties....:)

Love you dear!!

Always miss my husband when I am travelling or he is travelling, and that’s what’s missing is about, when one is away...haa haa...not when we are together...he heee...;-)

Anyways miss you so much now that wanted to write some lines for you, so here I go:

I know you for 9 years and married for 7 years but it feels like it was a very long time ago, when the first life form was created (heeee heee maybe we were 2 amoebae in love).

You spoil me dear, and let me do what I want. You care so much and are a protective wall, less for me and more for yourself (protect yourself from all my anger and lashes towards you)

I want to be with you for the rest of the lives (the ones after this one) till I get Nirvana....and hell who wants Nirvana ...I wanna be with you for ever and ever after...

Love you dear and have fun without me, as I will be back soon :)

Article I had written years back!

I had written an article "Passion at work" in 2001 and today I saw a blog referring it, felt good
check it:

http://raja_voom.blogs.friendster.com/prosti/2006/07/passion_at_work.html

Reading during Travel...:)

Traveling to the US, was sleepy as started my travel early morning. Spent most of time watching movies and sleeping. Watched some real good ones...:)
Then when was a little awake read Paulo Coelho's "By the River Piedra sat down and wept". Read half of it and as always he just awakens the dead spirit in one.

And as I read the books of the spiritually awakened or listen to the discourses or attend a course of a divine Guru, I keep realizing how the messsage is the same, the packaging may vary. What I understand is that the Truth is the same.

Now at the hotel and listening to the discourse ' A Dimension Beyond the Physical' by 'Sadhguru' of 'Isha Foundation'

Planning to complete Paulo's book, and then do my Yoga in the evening.

Wow, life feels good....so lucky to be from a place like India...where one can gain access to life, spirtuality, love in such a intense way.

Last trip to Sydney I was sick by body, mind and was in such a emotional turmoil. And not that I couldnt meditate or do yoga but just that the divine had greater plans for me. Life is a learning and I am grateful for everything. "The Good and the Bad". Sometimes I wonder how I can call anything "Bad", there is only goodness around, atleast feel like that at this moment :)

Take Action, Be responsible!

Most of the pain I have is when I wait for someone else to take action and base my emotions in life on that person's action. He didnt call me, "I am upset". She doesn't mail, "She is rude". Why do I let others take charge of my life. What a 'lazy way' to live :)

I take Action and then I am totally responsible for my actions. Then do I feel hurt, do I feel bad...no, not at all. It may be difficult but awareness really helps. As one gets aware of whats going on, it helps :)

Moments

Life is moments
And I realize I lost
so many of them
as I was never living them

When happiness came
lamented over the past
or worried abt the future
and lost the moment

Today I see life as
a gift from god
as I grace it every moment
and thank him for all his love

Fun & Music Time at the Old Age Home!

Last Thursday I dropped at the Old Age Home to meet the manager Poonachaiah. I had printed invitations which had details of the party we planned for the members of the old age home on the coming Saturday. When I shared this with my friend Mudit, he had a big laugh, oh so you are inviting them for a party in their own premises..he he :) Yeah, funny I too laughed at the thought...:) Anyways the intention was to give information of the Agenda, Time and Place.

Mr Poonachaiah was pleased with the plan, he assured he will distribute the pamphlets which I had printed out to everyone. He suggested I invite the chairman of the Trust and I thought that was an excellent idea. A year back I had printed a request asking permission from the Chairman to do activities at the old age home. A kind and nice gentleman he had readily agreed. So I was really looking forward to see him there.

We had a party last year too, but this party was different and I was looking forward to it. The Agenda had music as part of the plans. Prax who is a guitarist had planned to get his friends Manu, Shruthi and Steve who would perform. It was all his idea and I must say it was a great plan.

Saturday morning did some shopping for the party, kept the camcorder ready and by 2pm headed for the Ashram to meet all of the rest except Prax and group. We planned to meet at 2:30pm so that we can all buy some more eatables for the party. All of us then went around in the vicinity and were ready by 3:30pm.

Indira Aunty who is the President of the Old Age Home and also resides in there was very pleased to see us. She made special squash for us in the Kitchen. I told her we were here to serve her and not the other way round. She was so persistent so happy to do it for us that we let her do it.

We then started the party with the intention of our group by Suresh. We then had rounds of introductions. Prax and team were supposed to reach a little late :) All the people at the old age home introduced themselves. There were lot of claps for the members who have crossed the 80 age bar :) The volunteers also introduced themselves and we were almost done when the Manager along with the Chairman joined us.

The Chairman gave a nice speech appreciating our efforts and also looking forward to the good evening. Till then the musicians arrived with their instruments. They needed time to set the instruments so they chose the kitchen to do that as that was the only place available :)
We realized we need to change the agenda, the food was after the music program but looks like the food needs to be served soon. So Siddhartha, Sujeet, Suresh, Deepak got busy in arranging the food items and serving it to the members of the old age home, manager and chairman. I was busy cutting the fruit salad in the kitchen amidst the musicians practicing.

After the food, the musicians team were ready. Prax was on the Guitar, Steve on the Tabla and Manu started with a bhajan. He had a beautiful voice and everybody there were enthralled. He is a Karnatic Classical Singer. Shruthi then sang the next bhajan, she is hindustani classical singer. What a great mix we had there :) So they alternated and sang some 5 bhajans. In the end they ended the show with a lively 'Dooba Dooba' which had Prax, Manu and Shruthi stand and sing....!!

We captured the event in our cameras, Prax on his digital camera and Sidhartha on his SLR. I had some worried with my camcorder initially but later fixed it and could capture some sections.

The Chairman was very happy and told us that he looked forward to more activities and welcomes our presence at the old age home. The session ended after we took feedback from all the members

We did the cleaning up and then we left promising to return soon. Before leaving some of us spend time with Mr Rajgopalan and his wife who are bed ridden and couldnt make it to the event.

While leaving the Ashram, I was so filled with positive energy and had great plans for the future...:)

Reviving Old Age Home Activities!

Finally got a handful of volunteers and we all headed to the Old Age Home. Some were new volunteers, Prax and Sujeet. Deepak couldnt make it this time, looking forward to his presence next week, we need lot of help.

When we met the people in there, it was so much fun. It was like a celebration. We were chatting with 2 ladies who came in recently. One of them was thrilled to see us and she said "Great you guys came we were talking to the management for an outing or picnic". And another lady suggested: "We can plan moonlight dinner". We were like WOW and we laughed. Then she explained though. She told that when she was younger they used to plan moonlight dinners for all the old including her Mother in law. So they used to go an open space and spread out food in the night. Enjoying the food under the moon :)

Sidharth, who has been with the group for long had got fotos of the party we had last year. All of them enjoyed watching themselves in the pics. Mr. Doraiswamy was surprised to see his foto. He remarked "Is my hair all white?"..we joked and suggested him to color it if he would like it :)

So we promised them a party on coming Saturday. We have 3 days to go and lots to plan..hey guys lets rush!!! :)

A Note

There is this guy in my Mom's apartment who always parks his 2 wheeler in a weird way...its never straight. Will either fall in the car parking place or will cover space for 2-3 two-wheelers...:)

So we called the security guy to warn this guy that he aint parking properly. The security guy told us 'Oh this guy, he is a pain'. "Earlier when he was staying in another flat in the same building he used to park in funny way and trouble the others. Well now he has shifted his flat and repeating the same action."

After a few days, I got bugged of his parking style as I pushed his vehicle straight. I told Dad that day "इसका कुछ करना पड़ेगा". Dad is like "Dont bother". Sridhar is in London else he would say "पूरी दुनिया को सुधारने में लगी है"

Anyways I wrote a note and put it in his vehicle. The note read "Kindly park your vehicle properly. It is inconveniencing others. A troubled flat owner" (While typing this note I was so inconvenienced by the so many 'i's in 'inconveniencing', he he )

After that day I have seen his vehicle parked properly. Earlier when Mom had requested him to put it straight as it was very close to our car, he asked "Ab theek hai?" in an irritated fashion. The Note helped though, maybe it didnt hurt his ego :)

In Dino Dil Mera Mujhse Hai Keh Raha!

Another Song I have been listening to lately :)

In Dino - Soham.mp...

Hindi Song Title: In Dino Dil Mera Mujhse Hai Keh Raha
Hindi Movie/Album Name: LIFE IN A... METRO
Singer(s): SOHAM


Hindi Lyrics:
(in dino, dil mera, mujhse hai keh raha
tu khaab saja, tu ji le jara
hai tujhe bhi izaazat, karle tu bhi muhabbat - 2) - 2

(berang si hai badi zindagi kuchh rang to bharoon
main apani tanahaayi ke waaste abbb kuchh toh karoon) - 2
jab mile thodi fursat - 2, mujhse karle muhabbat
hai tujhe bhi izaazat, karle tu bhi muhabbat

(usako chhupaakar main sabse kabhi le chaloon kahin door...
aankhon ke pyaalon kse pita rahoon usake chehre ka noor) - 2
iss jamaane se chhupakar - 2, puri karloon main hasrat
hai tujhe bhi izaazat, karle tu bhi muhabbat - 2
in dino, dil mera, mujhse hai keh raha
tu khaab saja, tu ji le jara
hai tujhe bhi izaazat, karle tu bhi muhabbat - 2

Tere Bin - lyrics

Did some self help (googled ;-)) and got the lyrics and translation :)

tere bin sanu sohnia - besides you my love
koi hor nahio labhna - i shan't find another
jo dave ruh nu sakun - who'll give peace to my soul
chukke jo nakhra mera - and indulge me

ve main sare ghumm ke vekhia - i have gone and seen it all
amrika , roos, malaysia - america, russia, malaysia
kittey vi koi fark si - there wasn't any difference
har kise di koi shart si - they all had some condition
koi mangda mera si sama - some asked for my time
koi hunda surat te fida - some were fascinated with my face
koi mangda meri si vafa - some demanded my fidelity
na koi mangda merian bala - none wanted my demons

tere bin, hor na kise - besides you, no one else
mangni merian bala - wanted my demons
tere bin, hor na kise - besides you, no one else
karni dhup vich chhan - shall shade me in the sun
jiven rukia si tun zara - (the) way you paused slightly
nahion bhulna main sari umar - i shan't forget all my life
jiven akhia si akhan chura - you said, looking away
"rovenga sanu yad kar" - "you shall weep in my memory"
hasia si main hasa ajeeb - i laughed a strange laugh
(par) tu nahi si hasia - but you didn't
dil vich tera jo raaz si - you had a secret in your heart
mainu tu kyon ni dasia - why didn't you tell me

tere bin - besides you
sanu eh raz kise hor nahion dasna - none shall tell this secret to me
tere bin peerh da ilaaj - besides you what druid
kis vaid kolon labhna - has the cure to my ills
milia si ajj mainu tera ik patra - i found today a note of yours
likhia si jis 'te - on which you had scribbled
tun shayr varey shah da - a varis shah couplet
park ke si osnu hanjnu ik duliya - upon reading which a teardrop fell
akhan 'ch band si seh raaz ajj khulia- what was locked in the eye was revealed today

ki tere bin eh mere hanjnu - that other than you these tears of minekise hor nahio chumna - won't be kissed by none else
ki tere bin eh mere hanjhu - that other than you these tears of mine
mitti vich rulnha - will wither in the dust

Picked this translation from this site: Rabbism

Found some interesting comments posted by people on this song and this one was unforgettable which says that the song was written by Rabbi for his father!!!

Dedicated to a dear friend!!!

Dedicating this song Tere Bin sung by Rabbi Shergill to a dear friend :)

Friend, will need your help understanding some of the Punjabi tho' ;-)

Rabbi Shergill - T...

AOL Bhajans!

Sharing some AOL Bhajans I am enjoying lately :)

1.Lambodara


Lambodara Hey Vigneshwara
Shambo kumara Vigneshwara
Ambika Tanaya Om kareshwar
Hey Ramba Hey Ramba Vigneshwara

Mourya re bappa mourya re (Low , High )
Ganapati Bappa Mourya, Mangal Moorthy Mourya

Lambodara.wma

2. Jai Guru OmKara
Jai guru omkara, Jaya Jaya sadguru omkara, om 2

Brahma Vishnu Sadashiva 2

Hara Hara Hara Mahadeva, Shiva Shiva Shiva Sadashiva 2

Jai guru omkara………………..

Sadguru Omkara.wma

Love me Tender

Love me but love me tender babe
Hold me close and secure
But not so tight to hurt me babe

I’m a flower in your hands
You call me beautiful and lovely
Don’t try to crush it with your love

Don’t kill the love with your craze
Lest we lose it forever
& dwell on memories never to return

[This poem is not meant for anybody, please dont ask me any questions on that :)]

Some events..:)

Yesterday decided to get back home early around 4pm from office instead of taking the 5:40pm shuttle. Went out of the building in search of an auto, which isn’t easy to get on the outer ring road. There is a continuous stream of speeding vehicles and one may find it very difficult to get an auto. I am a little positive... :) so just lug my backpack and out on the long stretch of road waiting for an auto.

That was enough of an introduction. If it was Sridhar, he would get so impatient like "why all this background", "what actually happened ..? :) (now I extended it more for you guys, he he)

I finally see an auto coming by and 3 school students get out. It’s strange on that road. Anyways I wave at the auto guy to check and he waves back positively. Till then I see a lady in a Maruti car asking me from a distance if I need a lift. I signal her I don’t and point to the auto. I rush to the auto, tell him my destination and get in. I watch that the lady still waiting for me to get in, in case the auto guy refuses.

I was planning to thank her if this auto guy catches up with her...anyways that doesn’t happen. As I start enjoying the auto ride, (which I do as I travel a lot in the autos at Bangalore..:)), I see 2 certificates from top police official, Vijay Kumar Sinha and Ashutosh Kumar. It was written in all Kannada....and since I have learnt Kannada can read it with ease though trying to comprehend can be tough. I understand that this was certificate of appreciation for retuning a Dell Laptop and other important papers left by a passenger.

When I reached home, I asked the auto guy (his name if I remember right was Ravi Shankar) if that certificate was for returning the Dell Laptop. He was impressed that I could read Kannada...because my spoken Kannada is bad..:) I told him how impressed I was with his act because its rare one.

One eventful day worth sharing on this blog :)

Fear me? :-)

You cant evade me.
Try you may in reality
not in your dreams
0r your wakeful thoughts

Why run from me, why fear me?
I am the one you loved
the one You held
I dont mean harm

We dont need each other
We never did
We never would
Who needs any one anyway?

Love has no future
it has no past
its not about passion
Why care whats it about?

Give me your fear
and I give u this gift
Wrapped in this wish
life be happy for you
whatever road you choose

Dad's favourite quote!

Lord, give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.
-Anonymous

Gratitude for everything!

Gratitude for the little things. Today decided to practise this and see how it can change my perspective.

Took a taxi to work as was not too well and had to be phyically in office for some hardware procurement work for our lab. The Taxi guy charges are really high and I was a little bugged but then thought this is a good opportunity to practice gratitude.

So while in the way, just thought about how thankful I am to have this nice person to drive me to work. Then the thought flashed 'damn he is taking good money for it'. Then I thought 'Well he is doing his job and doing it good and I must thank him'

When I reached work, I asked him "Aapka naam kya hai?". He told me "Ravi". I gave him the money and told him "Thank You Ravi". He was beaming. Also advised him on a short route to get back, he flashed a smile.

Hope to do this more and enrich my life. The Power of Gratitude!! :-)
Check this old post on my blog where I got introduced to this:

Post on Gratitude in my blog

Symbol of Gratitude

Get introduced to Gratitude

Cut the crap...!

Arent we always "looking good"? Sometimes even when I blog I am so conscious about how gud it will look when my readers review it...

What the hell..? Am I not losing my me then...lemme just cut the crap and say things I wanna say the days I wanna say...it aint always have to be sugar coated huh..infact why any time..
Just be the bitter me..and receive the love from the readers I was looking at...

Thats what I did when I wrote my post on 'Racism in India'....and so many loved it..why bcos it was more genuine than anything I wrote in my blog till date...:-)

I knew ppl wudnt like things I said but I still wrote it. I knew some would say she doesnt love her mother-in-law but I knew it wasnt abt hate or love. Also I knew some would think I have a problem with e'thing but I still wrote it...

And whats permanent...nothing..not even our negative emotions, our problems..so let it out once in a while folks..and lemme do it too :-)

We fear people

Its strange but true that we have an aversion from 90% of the people we meet. We fear people so much like every one is after to kill us. Ppl dont want to take the risk of making friends. Making friends?...we dont attempt to talk and the least make eye contact

These fears which we keep in us bcos of our past experiences....strikes on the face like a serpant...hissing...the deep rooted fear and we run, far away from the human as if he was an alien..
Hey dear he is human..just like u ..dont fear him...

Its worth a risk...loving another human, accepting someone as a friend, making eye contact, smiling..those are our connections in the world...keeps us alive...

Mobile painting!

I started this new hobby of mobile painting on my Motorola A780 last year in Aug 2006. Sridhar gifted me this mobile on my b'day and it was love at first sight :-)
Feb 2005, he had gifted me this Motorola A768i, liked it as it was my first introduction to a PDA mobile - the communicator. But I struggled without a keypad, it worked only with a stylus.

What does one do waiting at the doctor's clinic, at boring meetings ;-), airports etc...?

• I read books, loads of them :-)
• Watch people, make observations
• Day dream !!
• And nowadays a new way to solve the waiting problem :)...painting on my mobile :-)
  

Check out some of my Mobile Art: It aint as good as a paint brush but I am happy with the results as it aint too easy with a stylus..!! & it keeps my creative juices alive...! I miss painting and sketching I used to do on paper so I make up for that here!!

Understanding Shiva

Hey friends, today(Shivaratri) is a good reason to spend sometime understanding and praying to Lord Shiva. Read what I picked from a site:

Shiva is referred to as 'the good one' or the 'auspicious one'. Shiva - Rudra is considered to be the destroyer of evil and sorrow. Shiva - Shankara is the doer of good. Shiva is 'tri netra' or three eyed, and is 'neela kantha' - blue necked (having consumed poison to save the world from destruction. Shiva - Nataraja is the Divine Cosmic Dancer. Shiva - Ardhanareeswara is both man and woman.

He is both static and dynamic and is both creator and destroyer. He is the oldest and the youngest, he is the eternal youth as well as the infant. He is the source of fertility in all living beings. He has gentle as well as fierce forms. Shiva is the greatest of renouncers as well as the ideal lover. He destroyes evil and protects good. He bestows prosperity on worshipers although he is austere. He is omnipresent and resides in everyone as pure consciousness.

Shiva is inseparable from Shakti - Parvati the daughter of Himavaan - Haimavati. There is no Shiva without Shakti and no Shakti without Shiva, the two are one - or the absolute state of being - consciousness and bliss.

Continue Reading

Further you can check on the significance of Mahashivaratri

Ey Hairathe...

Humming this song today from the movie Guru and cant help sharing it with u all :-)

Lyrics:

(dam dara dam dara, chashm chashme naam - 2
sun mere hum dum
hameshaa ishq mein hi jeenaa) - 2
(ay hairathe aashiqui jagaa math
pairon se zameen zameen lagaa math) - 2
ey hairathe aashihqui - 3
dam dara dam dara, chashm chashme naam - 2
sun mere hum dum
hameshaa ishq mein hi jeenaa

kyon urdu faarsi bolate ho - 2
das kehthe ho do tolate ho
jhooton ke shehenshaah bolo naa
kabhi jhaankhon meri aankhen - 2
sunaeye ek daastaan jo honton se kholanaa
ey hairathe aashiqui jagaa math
pairon se zameen zameen lagaa math
ey hairathe aashihqui - 3
dam dara dam dara - 5

do chaar maheen se lamhon mein - 2
umron ke hisaab bhi hote hain
jinhen dekhaa nahin kal tak - 2
kahin bhi ab kok mein woh chahre bote hain
(ey hairathe aashiqui jagaa math
pairon se zameen zameen lagaa math) - 2
ey hairathe aashihqui - 3
(dam dara dam dara, chashm chashme naam - 2
sun mere hum dum
hameshaa ishq mein hi jeenaa) - 2

Play the song:

Ey Hairathe.mp3

Valentines Day :-)

For me...hmmm..e'day is Valentines Day...I aint kidding!!! :-)

My friend Tim has started a new blog, he has written a beautiful story about Valentines Day, its a must read, do check it:

Blog: The joy of four seasons

What a relief!!

I often take some packages in the beauty parlor when I see I need some help on my skin, hair or some beauty treatment as I dont have time because of work.

I had taken this hair package and the guy who is working on me, Chandan went for vacation for 2 weeks. He told that in his absence another girl will take it for me but she wasnt there when I went the first week she had gone for some training and she didnt inform, I was furious. And the next week I cancelled the appointment, had some work to finish at office.

Chandan didnt return the next week as someone passed away unexpectedly so I decided to take appointment with that girl who Chandan had suggested. She started bugging me like why didnt u come for 2 weeks, now ur package validity will get over. All Chandan's clients are getting loaded on me and all that. I blasted her and told her to give the fone to someone at the front desk. They told Chandan should be back in 2 days..and well he is back and I finally got my hair massaged and washed. It feels so good today.

I am so happy Chandan is back :-) What I like about him his dedication to his work and he is so professional and kind in his words.
Some of the beauticians feel they r doing a favor on us..huh..!!!

May feel like a little thing for u guys..:-)...but I feel so relieved today :-)

Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam

I have hit upon this site on the Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam

http://www.okonlife.com/poems/index.htm

Found some good poems, you can check out more :)

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Every creature honor and respect
Bird or beast, plant or insect
If you look at life you will detect
From dust to dust, divine intellect.
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The hands of fate play our game
We the players are given a name
Some are tame, others gain fame
Yet in the end, we’re all the same.
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To be aware of each moment spent
Is to live in the now, and be present
Worry for morrow shan’t make a dent
Caring for the now, your mind must be bent.
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Sorry for cheating!

Last year we started on this project for the old age home. We showed so many dreams and made so many promises. We achieved a few but then were totally out of sight.

Siddhartha came home on the weekend and felt that we cheated the people at the old age home. All the team members felt guilty about backing away from our responsiblities.

We are planning to get back into action and this time we will win your trust for good. We are trying!!!

Check my landmark blog for more on this:
Blog: Landmarkians

You can listen to the songs now :-)

Finally got this song thing working, so go ahead and check out the earlier posts with songs and enjoy :-)

Back to the Stock Market

After this crazy Sydney trip had forgotten my fav activity of trading in the stock market...
I dont do it for the money...really :-)
Just love the way the market is so unpredictable and yet we listen to all the analysis and predictions.
The fluctuations dont worry me even though I have so much money put in there..;-)
Bcos I know its a game and I m having some fun ..:-)

Anyways just put in some money for an IPO ....he he..!