Friday, December 14, 2007

Pyar ka side effects.....

My conversation on chat with a friend on "love" :)
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ME: love catches one unawares

Friend: i guess

ME: sometimes we think we know it all
and we are in this good intellectual state
and love comes by
crashing our identity
intellect
fundas
and what not

Friend: so basiclly loves just screws us..one way or the other
ha ha ..

ME: well said
;-)
but if u want to see it as a true optimist
like me
I see it as a way to introspection
learning
knowing oneself
and changing course
lot of newness comes in us
and there is a fresh way we see ourselves
also one needs to realise the object we love
aint so lovely as much we make it
there is lot of our creation
and we lose touch with reality
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"Friend" didnt respond after this...must be thinking "YE KITNI PAKAATI HAI" ;-)

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Helping Hand!

Mom always lectures ;-) "Support people when they need you" "Dont miss opportunities to help people"

For years I didnt have the discernment to comprehend this and was ignorant of the growth I was missing.

From past 4-5 years though, I am cognizant to this aspect of life. One of the discoveries is that when I give more importance to the community around me, my self worth has actually risen.

Spirits are lively and blithe. Everyday is satisfying because life always has a cause when I am thinking outwards and rather indulging in the self.

I have even gone to the extent of being kind to many who have been unkind to me. I empathize with the individuals I have hurt and give them a true and sincere apology. To respect them, whom I thought I didnt require as they didnt seem to fit in my scheme of things.

Before now, I would have been very hesitant to do such acts, but now I apprehend it all. There are no loose ends, no hangups and my heart is expanding.

I am "no different" from the other human, I am the world. I am ONE with all!

I am devoid of hatred, revenge, hurtful feelings....too good to be true??...huh!! ;-)

...And you can be too, just a shift in thinking :)

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Job and Hikes!

Its hard to accept, the words are stuck in his throat. Life couldnt be this!! He resigns himself to his fate. Its always the smarter ones who succeed in the career path. Whoever cared about hard work. Yeah yeah, everyone wants a smooth guy. With all these thoughts in his mind he heads out of the manager's cabin. He has got a 3% hike and he is shocked...

Its been 3 years at the job and Mr Mehenti was the person at all times. Normal work and he was there, crisis time and he was slogging out the hours at work. He just kept doing the work with all focus and concentration. He didnt expect anything from the job but just to do it best and to do it right.

"Now what should I do? Should I look for another job or do I continue the way I was..? What do I do? Help me!!! "

Please help Mr Mehenti!

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Fantasies, Dreams and Life!!!

Right now I can see life like carrying a remote with 3 buttons: Fantasy, Dreams and Life
What a luxury!!! All of these states are great...for some I may sound crazy ;-)

Just imagine, I press this button and there I go fantasizing. I am on this beautiful, exotic place...gardens, flowers, the sky and there I am sitting and writing poetry...wow!! :)

The next button, and I am dreaming in the night. It is involuntary but to some extent my state of mind does influence it. I am dreaming of an era gone by, so many 1000 years ago. Struggling as a woman, living my life in those restrains. It feels so true...it is about helplessness and when I grow out of it, it is about maturity. Not making sense to you? Just get it that I am living in a different time altogether!

And then I wake up and press the button "Life". Woaaah...what a wonderful morning! Let me start my day listening to Suprabhatam. Yoga and meditation makes me feel so much in place...and I am off to work!!

Then I press the next button and the next and I must say I am freaking out friends...;-)

Monday, December 03, 2007

Love is not lost


He told me "Remember that gal I told you about, it’s all over!" "I cannot believe its true, did it really happen?” "I wish she would come back to me"

How we all wish our loved ones living or dead came back to us? Those unfulfilled desires, love that was lost.

I tell my friend "Love isn’t lost" and maybe this was destined to happen for there is a better life waiting.

He is tired and sleepy, had been lamenting over it the whole day. "Thanks for your kindness!! Will surely take your advice on this tomorrow, now I got to sleep" :) :)

Surely my “gyaan” won’t spare you friend for I learnt that love is not lost, its always there within us and if you care you will discover it!! :)

“I hold it true, whatever befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most; 'tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”
Alfred, Lord Tennyson quotes (English poet often regarded as the chief representative of the Victorian age in poetry, 1809-1892)

I guess this would make more sense:

“'Tis better to have loved and lost than to do homework with three children”
(Quote picked up from the internet)

The Seeker


And we dream when young... The world is ours and there are no worries. As age passes by dreams have lesser or no meaning. Life loses its thrills and excitement. There is little left to aspire for. Its getting so tough, need to keep the mind sane and the body in shape. The seasons dont matter at all, as everything is a struggle.

Is this why we are here..? To realise at the end that it was just to die...to leave everything and go whatever we had desired most.

And we die with the mysteries unsolved...what is life and what is death?

Some say we care less to know, why waste time on this...just live :)

I am a seeker, I search for the knowledge...find lots around, makes sense for a while but I dont get the Truth.

For certain is death for the born
And certain is birth for the dead;
Therefore over the inevitable
Thou shouldst not grieve.

Bhagavad Gita (250 BC - 250 AD), Chapter 2

This gives me solace for a while...! :)